so my computer has been crashing constantly
I hate it, it needs to be laid to rest
it crashes every time I use it
it's very annoying when you're on ebay trying to bid on stuff

haha today at work I got this call from an employer so I took the call out in the back where we put stuff away (appliances and what not) and my boss caught the last few lines of my conversation "job interview on thursday"
my job can suck a fat dick, he already asked my buddy and he said nothing he asked him if I was looking for a new job, he said I know nothing man, then he goes that's pretty slick. What do they expect, they treat me like shit, they are total assholes about everything I do, and they're concerned about me leaving, I don't mean to fluff my own feathers but I've done a lot for this company, shitty how they treat their employers, and a lot of people are quitting they all hate the regional manager he smells like poo, no lie I don't get why either haha

anyways I bought a sweet sponge bob pez!


hahah and adam is a funny guy



so I've read the 2 series of bone, it's pretty good I really like the story so far, my friend adam has the first one I'll have to borrow it and he's got the 3rd one I love the graphics on this book it's pretty good
and lately I've been craving to watch invader zim a lot so I'll hit up my dvd's when I have time

but I don't have much to say right now I'm soo tired and I don't want to work tomorrow
but I gotta make some money
I wish I won the lottery instead of that london trip
oh by the way I got a txt msg today saying I won a trip to the bahamas... that's weird I'll have to look into this

smeared

so today I decided to get off my ass and paint, a little less motivation lately, I do'nt know what it is, I need to stop that cause it isn't getting me anywhere, maybe it's my job hours, they're just destroying my life
once this loan is paid off I'll be less worried about finding money



that's where I usually paint, either there or my room, usually in the basement when I'm going to make a mess
my hands are covered in paint it rules I don't know why
I wish I had more time to do this stupid snake painting I did



I did some cherries for practice but then I gave up, I really do need masking paper
it's hard to stay in the lines



yeah I don't know what I was thinking, things will pick up once I keep doing it consistently

as vauge as it gets

I had it coming for me, for being a selfish prick, a dagger through a wounded broken heart
there is just no winning with me
today sucks

I have built this false feeling, reality is it's just a fantasy, and I have to kiss this fantasy good-bye.

I'll step down

it hurts

the story so far

ok so today I go and deliver this bunk bed
note that we deliver to "lower income families"
but that's beside the point
anyways I deliver this bunk bed to this family and I have to set it all up, it's going upstairs to the children's bedroom the kids are about 10 years old
I look at the wall and I see this



geez what a sight, I'd hate to live there

my job stinks I don't like seeing this sort of thing I don't even know what happened nor did I bother asking

anyways today I got a sweet phone call made my day, friend ashley called right on

I was having a bad day, got an email from a friend of mine, she isn't really having a good time where she moved, and it affects me cause she's close to my heart sucks, wish I could do something

other news, my brother's wife flies in from japan to come stay with us, then we have to move out
can't wait to get out of debt soon enough!
I decided to go back to school, I may take radiology or go back to fine arts they both seem to interest me a lot, one for the money and the other cause I love art
I'll have to make a descision real soon.

mr wade got me into this bear called gloomy bear, I really dig the simple japanese cartoon/animation of this and the story so far from what I understand is this bear kills and beats up this kid, haha great!





so anyways this saturday I jam with this tom guy, he's got a digital line 6 delay pedal, we're gonna fool around with some sounds see what we can come up with, I love delay I think that kinda of sound is pretty cool, gonna get some piano parts in there, some subtle riffs and spruce things up
speaking of music, I talked to my friend nate about starting a band, he's off to cali to start something he used to play in endless fight and most of the guys in that band called it quits but nate still wants to play, so he wants me to play bass, go to the states and tour.... I do'nt know I'm thinking hard about this, I really want to go to school but I do want to tour and I love music... another but.. I don't like hc that much to dedicate full time tours hmm yeah I don't know

off topic again
new coheed and cambria - good appollo, I'm burning star IV, volume: 1 fear through the eyes of mad
yeah long name for an album!
I used to dislike this band a lot but I slowly got into
and man this album is amazing!! wow I'm floored by how much I love the songs, some songs sound like rush! hahah and rush is amazing
great use of instruments
they have this one song and it sounds like the secrete song from nfg - catalyst haha it's good

well anyways that's the story so far

great weekend
I found somethign to paint for my new project



I do'nt know what this is, but it's used to renovate homes... I saw this in my basement with trimings and what not
I hope I get a great idea for a painting, I haven't found an idea yet

but my cat spends quality time in the basement, and that's where my art studio is, well mine and my moms but she doesn't use it much so I'll say it's mine



grumpy sammy

anyways today for victoria day we spent the day at assinaboine park, good times, then we went to viva, this vietnamese restaurant, it was delicious, hung out with jay adam sam melissa jessica and pascal
great people







wel that's it
after reading an email
I'm not in the greatest shape

I bought spectacles



emo? maybe, awesome? yes!
I think they suit me... or at least I hope they do, 506 for them! but I get back 290 back! sweet tits

you know what sucks?
not getting a goodbye from your bestfriend
it feels shitty

well here is my crappy art piece all done by airbrush

it's harder then I thought, WAY HARDER then I thought
so much to learn, cleaning is meticulous
a lot of parts you have to take and put back on
I almost lost one very important piece that costs like 45 dollars
anyways on with the picture



yeah I don't know I hope I get this going faster
I love it, and it frustrates me wanting more

today my boss was being buddy buddy with me, I hate that, confuses me on the way I think about him, he yells at me for no reason, tells me no one likes me, then he's my friend
f him
today was an easy day for work, 5 hours out of town came back and closed the store

sleep is essential, I gotta get on that

Hi it's me, I have to wait for my tattoo I guess I rushed things thinking anyone can just do a simple design but that's not the case it was dissapointing to walk in to see what had been drawn
it's ok I respect the person for being an artist, but it wasn't what I was looking for, it's going to be on me for the rest of my life

anyways with no tattoo
my other plan was to buy an air compressor
and this completes my airbrush kit



I got it all for cheap too that air compressor is worth 500 got it for 228
I had to put teflon tape around the fittings no big deal, one minor thing, the quick release valve is messed up so i have to buy a new one, cost of that 5 dollars
I can't wait to get started!
it's going to be such a stressful thing to overcome


anyways lesson learned today, be patient
I tend to rush things sometimes and I end up making mistakes

I have to stop spending money on things
the money spending will end soon I have the things I need now no more bitching


I'm concerned about a friend of mine, it's bugging me and I hope I don't loose sleep cause of it
de

well today I did nothing
except! haha went to get glasses 512 for a pair of spectacles
geez I'm glad I'm covered for vision at work I had some money left over from when I went to london, I had about 100 pounds got back about 220, and I put aobut 230 on my debit so I should see about 250 back oh they better give me some back
for some reason it seems like I did something wrong

anyways I drew up a picture for a friend but he wanted something else
oh well just another collection



I fucked up on the cemetri of the light
I got pissed off about that when I looked at it from afar
oh well

today I went and saw mission impossible iii
I haven't seen the prequels at all, and it seemed like you didn't have to anyways, tom cruise is a slickster who does these so called impossible missions yet they seem to finish them, ironic?
should have called it something else accomplished missions.
Don't get me wrong I think tom cruise is a good actor, but geez this movie was complete garbage especially the near the very end, where his wife asks him what he does
some of the the things they did were too predictable and all these crazy gadgets that were used... made me think of mcgyver
I watched this movie cause my friend jasdave asked me to go, not really a fan of the crazy action movies

anyways I got asked to play in a band with this guy marc, he used to play in 9 to 5, an old ass hc band from back then
we talked a bit about our past bands I met him at the toad (a pub, this pub sucks, I hate that I see washed up kids at this place, but hey it's cool cause it's hip to be there, and I'm not bashing it cause of the alchohol purpose cause my friends drink) well we started talking about starting a band, so this should be exciting, not that I'm into hardcore much, I kinda steered into the pop punk band and he said ok he's down, great! Also this guy tom asked me to play in a band awesome more people, I love this music is my passion

I had a somewhat crappy weekend, someone told me something, caught me off guard they said they aren't happy with themselves (the way they see themselves in the mirror) I was bothered by this. I don't think a human can be a perfect specimen, or you know what maybe it can, but what's perfect to us? is perfection something we see because someone else is admired more?
I sat there trying to convince this person that they were fine, but I wasn't able to accomplish this at all
made me upset, friends with problems like this seems very awkward thing to talk about with them

also my crappy weekend consisted of working with this girl at my work, she tries to boss me around but she's only been working there for 3 weeks, pisses me off, I hate her, she's a human eating machine, she eats chips and slurpees for breakfast
I don't get it

anyways I'm rambling

I'm anxious for my new tattoo it's dedicated to my mom, she's been through a lot, lot of pain and suffering, it's for her, but she'll hate it anyways, she hates tattoos

happy mother's day mom, well it was yesterday but hooray

p.s. my friend scott gave me these haha my phone looks sooo 80's

I bought a frame
it's starting to come together SLOWLY, frames are expensive with some custom frames and others from the wall we were looking at 165 for everything, heck no
I'll have to look around for cheap frames
this one was 36 but it looks amazing!
frames make a big difference
I had to customize this one myself took me 2 hours to finish it



let's cheer for call backs for me tomorrow how about it guys?
c'mon.. :(
this is sad

why?!

why oh why is it so hard to find a job in this city
a job that pays decent, I feel like I'm running into walls going no where, it's hard to find a job, and the job I'm at is horrible, my boss favors these two new girls, well one of them the most, why? cause she's cute, and I get blamed for everything even things I don't do, for example the new girl got into a car accident the other day, she side swiped a vehicle to the right of her because she was trying to turn into the right lane and she didn't see the car, took out her left mirror and scuffed up the green auto mobile. So the next day my boss, was trying to blame this on me, "why didn't you help her look?! what were you doing?!
geez I didn't think that I would have to be the driver's eye at all costs
what did I have to say about this? nothing, why? cause I have bills to pay, my boss is a total dick, and the way I get treated is stupid, I can't wait until I quit, it'll be splendid to say "here is my two week notice" TAKE THIS JOB AND SHOVE IT! heheh
so wish me luck on finding a job, I checked my phone and I have applied at 24 places in a span of a week PLEASE HIRE ME I'm a very skilled man


let's be positive now

I hate the fact that I'm so close to something, I know I can have it, but I can't (confusing yes)
do what your heart tells you braulio!

this morning I was sooo happy
I woke up to something beautiful
I know you'll read this and I'm sure you know who you are

a request was made
to see me in my uniform hehe
ok so here's before and after


notice the pen in the breast pocket, genius
I hate my job!

anyways after work today I went to the gym then I headed over to my friend's place alyson she wanted me to see her new kitten
he's adorable a big ol furball



speaking of pets, I called this lady who breed chihuahua's and she said in the fall 600 dollars for one, I will save my pennies and buy me one I want a dog so watch out a big burly guy with a pansy dog

I'm happy today!
why you ask?
cause something came in the mail
don't you love when things come in the mail for you, obviously not bills, but things you are hoping for, you look in the mailbox everyday anticipating your package
that was me this whole week

I recieved my iwata hp-c airbrush gun!
:) so happy about this
I can't wait all I have to do is buy paint and an air compressor

here are some pictures of my new toy









great!

well today I hung out wiht ashley
and her little pug named posi he's a cute dog he ate my gelati hahaha cleaned it dry





and I saw this outside
some dude spray painted his car purple.... all of it!!
wow geez that's crazy



geez I don't get it hahah
oh well

anyways here's a picture of me jay and tom delonge
on our trip

I'd like to say that I'm finished but I'm not
I have a frame to pick tomorrow
but here it is

an adventure

So I am back from my notorious london trip

WOW
what a beautiful country it is
the things I saw
the people were so nice
the girls were very approachable and easy to talk to, not like in north america, where they all think highly of themselves and are stuck up to talk to people
the girls are gorgeous
the only downfall london has, it's that everything is expensive
but that's ok when in rome...

so I spent quite a few bills on shoes and shirts, hoodie, good food, we chilled at a pub, and a few bars
we saw a few sights, took the tube (the subway) and rode around to check out some things
I must say macbeth those guys are fucking amazing people good bless them, not knowing two canadian people, they have showed us a lot of love and treated us like kings, backstage passes, met kari delonge which is tom delonge's sister, she's a fox and she was getting familiar with me heheh it was neat
learned that ava (angels and airwaves) is tom's little daughter, her name is ava
he came out to take pictures, but I don't blame him for not really wanting to do it, he prob gets bothered by people easily to take pictures, this and that. We weren't hte only ones that one, some other guy entered in england, he won, but see he was being creepy about the whole thing, saying he's got signiture framed cd's, and when tom came out he kinda freaked out, me and jay really didn't care too much, I was bit stoked to talk to ryan (bass player) he used to play in the distillers, I asked him about gear, then we talked about diff things, him and jay talked about buying houses and how much they've spent. We really didn't talk about the band much more really getting to know each other on a personal level, which hey they are people too, no need to freak out cause they are talented.
I also noticed that in london the kids there are all about the fashion, every guy at the show and the show packed 13,000 kids they all had fancy hair, super tight jeans and most of the girls were their pants low showing a bit of nickers hehe uderoos, which we found rather weird, I guess they don't care, they also like to hold each other's hands a lot (the girls) but they all were nice people, girls smiled at us a lot, some pretty girl wanted my belt and I said well my pants will fall down, she's like even better hahah I was like wow, shit like this doesn't happen back home
we also met some great girls from up north of london they were nice, we hung out backstage played pool.
When angels and airwaves played we got to go up on stage to the side and watch the whole show live it was amazing, gave me so much inspiration to do something for my life I mean wow, playing infront of that many kids, and me standing so close to this amazing band that everyone looks up to, it was an amazing feeling
They took pictures of us so it will be up on their site soon
but I mean for now here are some pictures from my cam, my cam isn't that good, so I will post some up later with jay's camera

I do'nt know what else to say abou this whole experience